NH Boudoir Photographer

I had made myself smaller to make everyone else comfortable…So I decided to change everything.

I’m four years into a marriage, living what looked like the perfect life on paper. Two dogs, a house. The whole script. And then I realized something that flipped my world upside down.

I wasn’t straight. I was a lesbian (thanks, comphet 😅).

And if that wasn’t true – if I’d spent my entire life trying to fit into boxes that weren’t mine – what else in my life wasn’t authentic to me?

I realized...nearly everything.

I’d spent my whole life dulling myself down — my femininity, my personality, my body — to be the “girl next door” men wanted. Attractive but not too hot. Confident but not too confident. 

Picture this:

the old me

That’s when I decided to book a boudoir session.

I closed my thriving business where I wore a mask. I left my marriage. I started exploring my sexuality, my desires, and learning what real love felt like. I even questioned my femininity! Was I only feminine because I was trying to fit a script?

I experimented with my style, dressing more plainly, and felt myself disappearing. I was still hiding parts of myself. Still scared of my body. Still scared of taking up space.




I’d never done anyyything like that before. I didn’t take spicy selfies. I hid my body because I thought it was shameful to show it. But something in me knew I needed to do this — to see myself in a way I never had before.

lesbian + bratty me

And during that session, everything changed. I wasn’t just taking pretty photos. I was meeting a version of myself I didn’t know existed. Someone sexy. Brave. Courageous. Someone who wasn’t afraid to take up space.

So I posted one of my boudoir photos with the caption: “I’m never shrinking or hiding myself to keep other people comfortable ever again  ✌🏻”

I knew my family would lose it, and I’d lose my Little Miss Perfect title, but in that moment, I truly did not care. 

Hundreds of likes. Dozens of supportive comments. Messages from people saying I inspired them. I felt brave. Seen. Powerful. Like I let myself fully exist for the first time — and like that existence mattered.

That’s when I realized: boudoir photos are more than just sexy poses to make you look hot.

Boudoir is the fastest and most powerful way to find trust, courage, bravery, power, and love for yourself — things you never imagined were inside you, but always were.